June 7, 2024- Complicated Feelings
AS much as I try to be kind and understanding towards humans, I simply feel as if most of the populace lacks some sort of value. It makes me ponder if they truly are even human... or if people like me are simply inhuman. Another alien species that long divided itself from those who believe that crossing and using others is a viable option. It disgusts me. Yet... I am always drawn towards these type of people. I hope my new "shiny thing" - as most would call this kind of obsessive behavior- breaks this pattern. Really, it isn't a big deal that people are scumbags, but maybe it is a big deal to me because I thought of this person highly and am forced to come to terms that I made poor judgement. Or that my kindness was abused and taken by this greed. Who knows~. Again, I would hate to find myself victim to their sludge membrane. This is a 5 day weekend for me, though!!! Exciting!!! 11:50PM
June 6, 2024- Deluge
One thing that I hate about humans is that there are so many variables that determine how a person becomes... them. On one hand, I think it's cool! On the other hand, I really loathe it when it goes the wrong way. It's hard to watch someone you care about be a slave to their own mental prison... but, at the end of the day, we must move on and forge new friendships and memories. Afterall, we can't allow ourselves to sink in the mud so easily! How boring! 11:41PM
June 6, 2024- A Fresh Start
Recently, I got into Akiba Maid War and I found myself enjoying it a lot more than I thought. Nagomi inspires me to not be a victim to my disorders. She's sincere in every way, and I love it. How... human. Being human is a concept I've come to learn about recently as I try to become vulnerable with my friends and family. It's been hard after some past turmoil, but I know I'll manage. If there's one thing you take away from NavyYard, it is that I am a survivor against all odds! (Sorry for the Kaiji reference...) 11:30PM